Lesson Learned

I couldn't make up my mind but my heart had decided
The two conflicted
and my worlds collided
I couldn't get it together
so I remain divided.
I made it past spring, summer and fall
Winter's approaching and I have nothing at all
Except this shadow when the sun shines occasionally
And this umbrella when the days get rainy
Perfect, just when I needed a body to cling to
Leave, this is what you do.
Saw you walking the other day
I turned my head and looked the other way
I couldn't stand to see your face
Wonder who she is and when she'll take my place.
I'm glad I could serve as a play thing
But we can keep it right here
Maintain this blur my dear
I'm asking for too much
I should be satisfied with this part-time
It's gotta be enough.
What was suppose to be a Sweet November
Quickly turned bitter
From a boil
Down to a light simmer.
Fall's weather will deceive
The sunshine and the brightly colored leaves
Mask the cut throat winds
Any leftover warmth leaves you,
You are chilled within
Sit and wait for winter to begin.
Too bad this spark fails to keep me warm
But I'm the one to blame
One heart can't ignite a flame
I'm only slightly charred and partially burned
No regrets just Lesson Learned.