Since Your Departure....

Since your departure I've questioned my mortality
If I had to leave today
I'd wanna do so with grace and morality
As I imagine you did.
As your body lies there
Your spirit resides up there
And I am down here
Crying here
Trying here
To compose myself
Like everyone else.
The skylights change
He preaches his word
With such animated
adjectives, nouns and verbs.
The music plays
The memories appear
Distorted chuckles
are really a mass
of uncontrollable tears
An ocean of cries
Scared to ask why
A sea of dark garments
Sitting and standing
To see you off
To say goodbye.
My blood shot eyes
My tears dried.
A motivation
An inspiration
I don't question
I don't ask
I simply live,
learn,
and breathe
With every moment,
Make it last.