YES WE DID! The Inauguration

The Inauguration!

What a proud day! The first Black president, but most importantly, a symbol of change! Bush didn't have to leave but he had to get the hell up out the White House. The new first family is moving in,so he had to pack up his ish and leave. HA!

Beyond all the politics, it's good to see a good looking president in office who happens to be Black (and white..let's not forget that). Yes, our new President is a beautiful looking man, with a classy beautiful wife and two lovely children. Michelle has a classic beauty and I loved that dress she wore to the inauguration balls. They symbolize a loving marriage, the way they look at each other, and have each others backs is truly a joy to see. I want a love like that. They're hardcore, doing their thing and doing it well.

I pray that all of America will embrace our new president and his family, because at the end of the day, we are our own enemy if we can't accept (not just tolerate, but accept) one another. If we cannot accept one another, respect one another, then why should we expect others to do the same. The world is changing, people are mixing, it's out with the old and in with the new. So either get on it or get left behind. Simple as that.

YES WE CAN!!! and YES WE DID.

Let the saga begin......

"I'm Fine" Til The Countdown

Well it almost makes a year my dear, as the clock tick tocks and the countdown begins. Until now I haven't paid much attention to the time, it just seems to move and I am forced along with it. So I keep myself so busy that I crash mentally before I have a chance to think before sleep. I just close my eyes and drift away, the quicker the better. It's better this way, no bloodshot eyes come day break with the sunrise. It was some time ago that I woke up in a warm sweat due to the sound of a cell phone, just to hear the words I'd been waiting for, dreading for, pain no more. No time to crash, get up and go to class, tears in eye so avoid contact at any cost, just stare at that projector blankly, too distraught, you should of stayed curled up under your blanky, rocking yourself to sleep as you weep, hiding, tucked beneath the sheets because "I don't wanna talk about it". It's easier if I keep my mouth shut, just laugh, smile, because if I don't, I'll cry, then they'll pat me on the back, "let it out". So now that's its official, it's over, it's done, I have to wait a week to say goodbye. I gotta wear black, sit on the second row and cry. I gotta keep it in, except at the end, everything that was in just came out, no control. So time goes by and the days roll along, but halt on the day you were born and the day you were gone. Soon after I walked into the wild, then valentine's day rolled around. Empty chocolate cover kisses, black instead of red roses, auto-pilot responses, "I'm fine". Well it almost makes a year, but my dreams are serene, except when I see you and hear you, I attempt to save you, maybe I could tell you one last time that I love you. But you already know, so the clock tick tocks and the countdown ends. With my tears dried, the sunrises and I smile genuinely.

It probably doesn't make sense but that's was just a little something I had to get off my chest.

* A Little Bit

If it's official we'll have to let it go. But we prioritize and we make
the time, even though I won't be the lady in your bed tonight. We bend the rules and we play the fools, just to get a glimpse of love. You break the date, or you make me wait, so I don't get too comfortable. Then we run away to avoid feeling vulnerable.

Tell me all your secrets and reveal the truth behind your lies. Leave me lonely, after a slow paced goodbye. Put a star next to my name in your little black book, so you can find me easily when you skim and take a look. Asterisk stating: *best girlfriend I never had. But I'm such a bore, you should be glad. Short-lived, too gone to deal with, hesitant to say I'm in love just a little bit.

little bit remix - drake & lykke li

Run Back

A sweet memory
that's all we'll ever be
We never make it past sunrise
I only see you in the night light
When the moon shines bright
Here's our chance
for true romance
but I'll run back to my safe room
locked away in my cacoon
A fear of flying high in the sky
A fear of falling to the ground
But sooner or later I'll come around
It's like I dream but don't act
I'm tired, it's a wrap
No discussion, that's that


Let's run back to our respective places
With fake shiney happy faces
Make assumptions with no basis
I'll walk back to him
And you back to her
Our matches made in heaven
Don't you concur?
Would it be bad if we gave it one more try
just call it an eye for an eye
Forget about the broken pieces you picked up
But I guess the past doesn't mean much
So his name leaves me
And all I can remember is what's his face, so and so and such and such

Big City, Big Dreams

Big city big dreams
Tell me what does that mean
I'm addicted
I'm a fiend
To the limelight
Or so it seems
Let's toast to the nightlife
Let's get high as a kite
Raise our drinks to the ceiling
Are you gettin that feeling?
Let me shake it in this freakum dress
And these stilettos shoes
Until my feet begin to bruise

Round 2...this is to the good life
Better than my 9 to 5
Big city big things
Nice cars and diamond rings
High in spirits
Slurred in words
Seen but rarely heard

BIG CITY...JUST DREAMS

Can I....?

Can I inspire you tonight?
Would that be alright?
Influence the way you walk,
The way you talk?
The things you say,
Would that be okay?

Can I invade your mind,
Borrow a little of your time?
Take up some mental space,
A resonation of my face?

Can I bumrush your dreams?
You become my fien?
Live me, breathe me,
I'm the only one in sight.
Can I inspire you?
If only for tonight.....

Where Did It All Go Wrong?

Something I wrote a long time ago...it's funny that it is still applicable and will be until the end of time....

Do you remember the day you realized you liked someone as more than just a friend? Does anyone remember their first sandbox crush? I'm sure then it was innocent but then as you got older, things began to get a little more complicated, as they always do. Personally, I can't remember where things went wrong.....

Maybe it was when mankind began to classify “love” as a game, as a plaything, as some form of entertainment. Despite the consequences of our actions, we believe there is no harm in having a little fun. I'm sure we are all guilty of this. I'm certainly guilty of playing with peoples emotions all for personal gain, for bending the truth to acquire temporary satisfaction because I thought it was fun. When we're bored and (for some of us) desperate for attention, we'll do just about anything; LIE, CHEAT, and DECEIVE, just to name a few.

As much as we've done these things to others, they have been to done to us as well. We've been lied to, cheated on and deceived. When we are on the receiving end somehow it doesn't feel so great. We are left to feel like the fool when it's all said and done. Somehow entertainment isn't so amusing when the joke is on us. But the crazy thing is after all of that, after being on the other side of things we still don't learn (or do we?). We go back to our same ways.....

This is a game where we keep our options open because we are so young that we don't want to be tied down. Because of course the concept of commitment is so hard for our young minds to grasp (obvious sarcasm). This a game where it's okay to play with people's emotions, where misleading actions are cool because there is an obvious understanding that it's all a game. Both parties are definitely aware of this correct? I guess if there was an obvious understanding in this game, if the rules were mastered by all the players then heartbreak wouldn't exist in this world. If so, then everyone would be content with “All is fair in love (and war)” and would instantly move on. Guess the obvious isn't so obvious after all.....

What gives us the right to play these deceitful games at the expense of others?
We are selfish....I am selfish.